The thought on my mind as I stand at the hinges of a new adventure is am I willing to give up the good - the thing I can I see in front of me even if it is just a possibility - in order to gain the best my Lord has to give me. I want so badly to answer yes. To truly say, "God, I want to lay aside all my good things which keep me from gaining Your best." But let's be honest - I like the good, even if it is just a possibility.
Before I venture any further, I must include a side note to mention that this post is from an entry in my journal, which I wrote earlier today. So, when I wrote this last sentence - I like the good, even if it is just a possibility. I actually chuckled aloud to myself inside the BRCC . Because again let's be honest, it does sound a bit ridiculous. I don't want to go after the best because I like the possibility of the good. I don't want to pursue the best that God has for me because of something good which may or may not happen. I have made myself content with the possibility.
But why? I believe with all my heart that when God says He desires to give me His best, that the best will happen. I think my issue is the unknown factor which accompanies choosing the best. You see with the possibility, while it may or may not happen, I know what it is. I can tangibly wrap my mind around it. However, that is not the case with the best. I know the best will happen, but it's unknown. By choosing the best I am deciding to go down an unfamiliar path. I know where the final destination will lead me, but the journey itself is a mystery. And I also know the journey will not be easy. It will be hard. I will be asked to lay aside everything. There will be tears and heartache. There will be pain and rejection.
But there will also be joy that is unending, fulfillment which finally allows me to find completeness, and strength to hold my head up and continue. Peace and provision will overwhelm me. I will find hope in this life, and be given the opportunity to bring this hope to the hopeless. I will find love and though I don't deserve it I will become captivated by it, consumed by it, restored by it. I will finally be able to love in the way that I have always dreamed about.
And with each step, each day, and each breath I will be moved closer to the arms of my Savior. And as I get closer I will see Him more...know His face more. And when it comes to the end of the journey and I don't have the strength to go any further, He will run to me and embrace me in way I have never known. I will finally be able to dance the dance I have been longing for in the arms of my Savior, my King, my Father.
So today I have a choice to make. I can continue to seek the good, knowing I may end up disappointed and I will miss out on the best. Or I can choose the best. I choose the best. And though I am scared I cling to the promise that He will never leave me. Knowing that it will be worth it. Knowing He is worth it. He is holding my hand and He won't let it go. He goes with me and before.
Pray for me my friends and family as I choose the best.
Jesus, today I want the best...Jesus, today I choose the best...Jesus, today I choose YOU
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